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Every Little Secret

 

Sublime Revelations

I’ve been dealing with back pain for over three years.
I have not been able to get a good night’s sleep.
I’m awakened suddenly often through the night.
If I get back to sleep it’s fitful all despite
My efforts to feel wholesome. I manage to keep
Myself from feeling hopeless despite all my fears.

What I want exactly is to wake up restored,
Refreshed, joyful, and eager to start the new day.
Can my natural state of wellbeing return?
About pain there are some things I truly should learn.
For Every Little Secret I’m willing to pay
Undivided attention. This I can afford.

Long before the pain manifested within me
I was pushing against things and making life hard
Which feels terrible on the emotional scale.
I must use resources that are at my avail.
Negative patterns of living I must discard.
I can savor the feeling of being pain free.

Do anything and everything that you can do
To soften the awareness of the nagging pain.
If that means taking pills then by all means do it.
To the emotional work I still can commit.
Absolute physical wellness I can attain
By releasing resistance. I must follow through.

The Emotional Scale

The Continuum Of Feeling

I am bored with my whole life. It makes little sense.
The longer I exist the less I am enthralled
By what life has to offer. The matter with me
Is that I’ve lost connection. I would like to be
Who I am at my finest. I’m neither appalled
Nor delighted. I’ve lost the feeling of suspense.

I want to feel contentment. I want to let go
Of all that I’ve been pushing against. I am done
With the struggle and striving. I just want to be
Comfortable and wholesome within my body.
I can get there on my own. I’m the only one
Who can make changes to my feeling status quo.

My boredom is the tipping point to contentment.
If I can make that tiny jump I’m on my way
To releasing resistance to feeling better.
The appropriate practice indeed must occur.
Life for me can seem like a delightful ballet.
How I feel at the moment I cannot resent.

I know that things are going sufficiently well.
With that thought I can feel some internal relief.
Noticing the positive aspects of my life
I can lower the frequency of psychic strife.
That I can control how I feel is my belief
Otherwise I’d be living unspeakable hell.

Things Will Flow

Believe In What You Know Is To Come

The emotional scale is a continuum
Of all possible feelings. One end is despair
And the other is ecstasy, and in between
A progression to wellbeing clearly is seen.
If I want to feel happy then I must take care
That I know precisely where bad feelings come from.

From despair to revenge is a positive leap.
I have much more control, and I find some relief
From a cold crippling numbness that eats at the soul.
It’s not healthy to stay there, but I feel more whole
If at least I feel anger. It is my belief
That I can avoid things that my spirit can’t keep.

Between having no resistance and letting go
Of resistance, there is a subtle difference.
Like a car with its brake off and it’s out of gear
Momentum gathers quickly. It’s best I adhere
To the basic psychology. It does make sense
To create my momentum and go with the flow.

From complete satisfaction into ecstasy
Can happen rather swiftly. I’m not complacent
With the way that things are. I’m exhilarated
With the wonderful world that I have created
Wherein I have the freedom to dwell in content.
I have no doubt that good things will flow unto me.

How To Unblock

Make It Come

There’s this thing that I really want that has not come,
And I want to know why it is taking so long
To receive what I’ve asked for so vehemently.
Yet, forgetting about it, I’m told, is the key,
Which makes ass backwards sense. If I’m doing things wrong
Just by wanting too much, I must be awfully dumb.

Of course, this way of thinking and acting defeats
What I want to accomplish. I must understand
What seems like such a puzzle. How Do I Unblock?
I defeat the solution by taking full stock
In the fact of the lack of the thing I demand.
Energy meant for living my dying depletes.

Getting out ahead of it is what I can do.
Doing what I’ve kept doing will get me no more
Than I always have gotten. Another approach
Can be found. I can trust in my spirit as coach.
The process I am making too much of a chore.
I can tell by how I feel. It is a strong clue.

The emotional scale is as real as any
That traverses a spectrum of polar extremes.
Most deliberately the ascension is made.
I should then be excited and not so afraid
That somehow I’ll not honor all my hopes and dreams.
What I want is as important as the journey.

These Two Statements

Absolute Freedom In The Knowing

Consciousness is eternal. It has no escape
Into mythical nothingness. And it is true
That what you ask is given. Sometimes it may seem
That it’s not so because you have low self-esteem.
You are out of alignment with that part of you
That is always and ever in the best of shape.

Focusing on what’s negative, like constant pain
That has made the body an unwilling hostage,
Is so easy to do. It becomes a practice.
And the more it is done, it is hard to dismiss.
It’s a manifestation that you must engage
To the best of your feeling for maximum gain.

A vibration is activated within you
Whenever your attention to something is strong.
How you feel is a most blessed indicator
Of vibrational content. As you attune more
To how you feel in each moment, it can’t be long
Before you will be living a life that is new.

Things can only get better. Write down these statements:
You can’t get it wrong – and – You never get it done
Anything that is never done cannot be wrong.
If I had enough talent, I’d make this a song.
Practicing your allowing is not only fun.
It can also be used for poor mood abatements.

Unblock!

Recognize The Obstruction

Here I am with the absence of what I desire.
All I have is the tonnage I’ve placed in the way
Of my truest heart’s yearning. Knowing it can’t come
While I’m in this depressed state separates me from
Everything that I’m after. Internal decay
Leaves me stuck in a hard place bewildered entire.

What is said in reply can’t be heard by my ears
When I’m dead in the substance of what I have not.
I’ve built up some momentum that is negative.
I must channel it somewhere in order to live
In a way that I rarely am caught on the spot
With the world knowing all of the worst of my fears.

I can’t keep doing what I’m doing and expect
To get something that’s different. I need to find
And approach that’s less stressful and much more at ease.
Feeling true excitement and encouragement frees
Up the spirit so that it can be just as kind
To the world as is possible and with respect.

The emotional scale is real and powerful.
Being consciously aware of it is to be
In the proper position for making choices
To enhance how I feel. And my heart rejoices
In the newfound control that I have over me.
I’m delighted to know that this stuff isn’t bull.

Unblock

Relieving The Built Up Pressure

There’s this thing that I want so much, and it’s not here!
I would like to know why and what I’m doing wrong.
Am I not sitting straight enough? Is there some block
That I am not aware of? I don’t mean to mock
All this talk of alignment. I have played along
With the Law of Attraction. My stuff should appear.

When I want something too much, don’t think about it
Because that only clogs things and makes me feel stuck?
Well then how on God’s green earth can I be assured
That the thing that I want is most surely secured?
It’s too much of a task. I’m feces out of luck.
The ironic enigma makes me want to quit.

But there is no alternative. It is the key
To success in the process of my creation.
I must feel the excitement – non discouragement…
And the ease to live life with no need to resent.
Getting to what I’m after is all about fun.
It has taken a lifetime to finally see.

Yet in seeing, I’m being all who I’ve become.
It’s not hard to be easy when given the choice.
Doing things the old way only brings back old things.
When I stop the struggle, then the universe brings
Much more than I’d expected wherein I rejoice
To releasing the blockage to where it came from.

Relief

Ascending The Emotional Ladder

In releasing resistance I find true relief.
I must know that this feeling is better by far
Than a hell ever present. The sorrow and pain
That I have caused for others because I’m insane
Now congest the insides of me and leave a scar
On my sense of direction. I am my own thief.

The emotional ladder is what I must climb.
From the bottom abysmal with deepest despair,
The next rung is anger. I need someone to blame.
It’s a much better feeling wherein I reclaim
Some power that I’d lost by not being aware
That there is such a spectrum. It’s here all the time.

Moving up the emotional scale is to feel
My way to satisfaction, and from there, onward
To the freedom and peace that I ask strongly for.
There is only momentum toward that and more.
The resistance I nurture cannot be ignored.
I can only release it in order to heal.

Nowhere near to the top do I find myself now.
Although I feel relief, no vibrational match
Does it make to fulfillment of ultimate dreams.
The increase in momentum between the extremes
Of emotion I’m able to use to detach
From what’s wrong with my present then learn to allow.

On Beating The Blues

Endless Cycles Of Gloom

An old man on a job search is death wish engaged
At full throttle straight into the darkness of hell.
Able bodied I am with an excellent mind
But this world doesn’t see that. In essence, it’s blind
To what I have to offer. I’m just a hard sell
To the age of the phone app. Indeed I’m outraged.

But who gives a bat’s dropping among hell’s elite?
Having spent the last few weeks as a prostitute
On the road and in offices for interviews
That upset and degrade me, I’ll not self-abuse
As I sense that’s the intent because they can’t shoot
Me for sport or for pleasure. Still I’m in defeat.

Sent way out to the boondocks through Amazon Flex
With a carload of packages on gravel roads
With no God Damned thing guiding me but a phone app
Then the fucking phone dies. The whole day’s turned to crap
I bent over and puckered for copious loads
Of the dark seed of Satan in virtual sex.

I’d take this as a joke played on me with a smile
And forget like a bad dream what’s happened to me
If I were a lot younger – not old and depressed.
Vows I’ve made to my doctors were not made in jest
But when push comes to shove one would have to agree
That to ask for a breastfeeding isn’t my style.

I cannot be employed, yet Magic I create.
I have many fine talents and education
That I’m still paying off after decades by now.
This life hates my damned guts. This fact I can allow
To solidify suicidal decision.
But for now, I’ve decided to nourish my hate.

Never Feel Negative?

Achieving The Impossible?

There’s this thing called “The Stream.” Everything in it flows
Only in one direction. The current some fight,
And this taxes the mood. People bring themselves down
Putting forth so much effort perfecting the frown.
Others let “The Stream” carry them and find delight
In the places it takes them. Their happiness shows.

To believe in “The Process” is simply to know
That I can always catch myself losing control
In a ‘tense’ situation. I’m pointed upstream!
My emotions cause me to act in the extreme.

In the moment I realize this, I’m more whole.
Letting go of the oars, I can let “The Stream” row.

Just let go of the bullshit. It’s not worth the harm
That it does to the spirit, and in the release
I will notice The Turning immediately.
And in time pleasant manifestations I’ll see.
Confidence in my worthiness must then increase.
“The Process” takes some practice but works like a charm.

“The Stream” moves rather quickly after turning me
In the proper direction. So, my letting go
Of the thoughts that upset me is all that I need
In any situation to get myself freed
From my having turned upstream. And now that I know,
No excuse have I for acting negatively.