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So Now…

Final Recollections

Do I care about people? Do I have a heart?
Life has thrown me into a conundrum of doubt.
I write words to express, but they’ve all come and gone.
I have only my memories to reflect on.
All my life I’d been hoping to figure things out.
Now I know that I’ve been insane right from the start.

The phone vibrates. I tremble. I can’t get used to
Random contact by randomness of entities
That see me as a prospect for making a sale.
I respond but by now I’m as slow as a snail.
I arrive quite unsatisfied and on my knees
To repent for the things I continue to do.

There’s a leak in the toilet. It’s a reminder
Of my slow steady wasting of infinite grace.
Things could have been a lot different if I had
Been with my own a righteous family comrade.
All the sins I have committed now I must face.
I’m surprised that a random soul would call me ‘sir.’

Once the life force within me was ever so bright.
Unbelievably sturdy and fast on my feet,
I had time to waste… and I did, to my regret.
Is it true that I have not a single asset
Spiritual in nature or even concrete?
Can I find anything in this world I’ve done right?

Open Doors

Many Opportunities

The balance of the universe vibrates between
What exists and the lack of it. If I’m able
To identify something I truly desire
Then the absence of this thing I want to acquire
Does exist. It’s important to remain stable
And to practice some positive mental hygiene.

From the point of my saying that I want something,
Through my thinking about it, one or the other
Side I give more attention to. What comes to be
Then depends upon which one feels better to me.
Only it or the lack of it can but occur.
This concept does not have to be mystifying.

Feeling lack about what I want only delays
Its arrival in my life. I’ll give attention
To my reasons for wanting it and my belief
That its coming is imminent. I’ll find relief
In my trusting the universe to get things done.
I can maintain my balance in myriad ways.

But the best way to open doors to everything
That I find most delightful is to acknowledge
Now the positive aspects of what I’m living.
The universe is intent on its giving
Whatever is asked of it. On this leading edge
Of creation, I find my life most fulfilling.

Morning Affirmation

The Beginning of a Wonderful Day

My! Last night was a blessing. I slept really well.
This moment I embrace with every part of me.
This brand new day is full of possibilities.
It’s a miracle waiting to happen with ease.
I anticipate what waits for me anxiously.
It will be magnificent from what I can tell.

Nights and days filled with joy I have gotten used to.
My sublime expectation of things working out
To my good is a treasure technique of a tool,
And how I feel this moment is just the right fuel
To excite this day’s engine and cast away doubt.
I embrace all that this day has for me to do.

I embrace the experiences lining up.
I anticipate all the opportunities
And the ease of fulfillment of my hopes and dreams.
Blessings descend upon me in multiple streams.
Every benefit due me this day I shall seize.
Pour some more gratitude into my waiting cup.

I anticipate the best to happen today.
I am ready this morning and in this moment
To commit to a good start. What unfolds for me
Will surprise and delight me indubitably.
Every moment of this day is marked for content.
I look forward to having this new day to play.

Go All The Way

Paradise On The Way To Heaven

If you’re going to try, then do Go All The Way.
Otherwise, do not start the path laid before you.
It could mean losing girlfriends, wives, and relatives,
Or your means of support which most rarely forgives.
You may lose your clear mind and be left without clue,
And the more that is lost, the more hell there’s to pay.

Can you Go All The Way knowing all is unknown?
With each step of the journey is uncertainty,
It could mean your not eating for three or four days,
Freezing on city park benches, prone in such ways
That attract sharp derision and harsh mockery.
It may challenge your spirit and hurt to the bone.

It could mean doing jail time and isolation.
Aloneness is the gift. All others are a test
Of how much you can take. Do you want to do it?
You know well what the answer is. You cannot quit!
You will do what you must and be fettered and blessed
And despite the rejection, there’s work to be done.

Better than anything else you could imagine
It will be if indeed you are going to try.
Don’t be half assed about it. Do Go All The Way.
There’s no other feeling like a part in the play
Where you dance with the gods and flame up the night sky.
You will ride perfect laughter. New life will begin.