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Addiction And Spiritual Growth

Drug Therapy

There’s no logical reason for me to have turned
Out this way. My upbringing was loving and kind
Yet I have an addiction. I have to admit
To myself that I have no intention to quit
Because in it there’s some semblance of peace of mind.
About life and my living it I’m unconcerned.

What’s the reason I do it? To cover the pain
Of my feeling inadequate to be around
Other people. I feel that I’m not capable
Of loving. I perceive that I’m unlovable.
There are no redeeming qualities to be found
In this sorry self. My whole life I’ve lived in vain.

Well, that’s it in a nutshell. I could say that I
Lost my job or a loved one but deep down inside
I feel ugly and socially not up to par.
I am powerless over conditions that are
Of myself too revealing. I have much to hide.
I don’t want you to know me. Please don’t ask me why.

Powerlessness becomes me. I fear that I will
Be discovered. I don’t want to have anything
To do with anyone. Kindly leave me alone
As I fade into the unwelcoming unknown.
Each of us is addicted to our wellbeing
Ultimately. It’s everyone’s wish to fulfill.

The Guru

Master of Enlightenment

If I go to my guru and say, “Oh wise one,
I have so many problems and cannot keep track
Of this life that I’m living. Always I’m depressed.
Misery I feel often because I am stressed.”
Not a thing but a funny look I would get back.

This perhaps may upset me because it’s no fun.

What’s distressing about it is that someone who
Can see right the hell through me can see all the harm
That I caused for so many. Embarrassed I’d be
Having someone looking that deeply into me.
Somehow his look tells me there’s no need for alarm.
I can look at him oddly and mess with him too.

Yet it turns out he’s not looking into my soul.
His expression is one from a broad perspective.
He sees me as the Brahma, the sacred Godhead
And he wonders why I’m being myself instead
Of a spark of divinity irrespective
Of the whaling persona and its major role.

His intent is to kid me back in to knowing
Who I am without all of the baggage I own.
He says, “You must be joking. I know who you are.
I congratulate you on becoming a star.
Though you ego’s performance may be overblown,
The divine within you is more overflowing.”