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When You Feel Like Quitting

Overwork

My life is in the darkest of darkest valleys.
At the moment I search for a means of escape
From this grip of reality but for a while.
It’s been ages since I had a hint of a smile
On my face. My life is in deplorable shape.
Why is it that life has brought me to my damned knees?

Beautiful things can come from my broken pieces.
I can give those shards the chance to turn me around,
It’s okay to be scared and it’s okay to cry
But I can’t quit. I have to give it my best try
Until some powerful breaking point can be found
And my will to continue my quest increases.

Everything that I’m going through is preparing
Me for what I have asked for. It’s in the process
Of becoming. I need to get out of the way
Of it coming and put confidence on display
With my person and focus on my happiness.
My work is in the area of self-caring.

I may not see it now but on the other side
Of this current dilemma I’ll see exactly
Why it had to go this way. What I have is hope
Which is all I need in order for me to cope.
I can know that the process exists to help me
To be with this most fettered life more satisfied.

Catch It!

Bad Mood

I’ll erupt into anger at the slightest thing,
And it gets me in trouble. When I lose control,
Things that are already hopeless only get worse.
I cannot keep on going with such an adverse
Disposition. Don’t touch me with a ten-foot pole
While onto the most negative feelings I cling.

Do I like feeling this way? It seems that I do.
It’s a much better feeling than utter despair.
No where near satisfaction am I with where I
Am in my life. I keep on asking myself why
Things are not getting better. Does anyone care
About the pain and suffering I’m going through?

The degree of my satisfaction has to do
With the power and momentum of my desire.
The degree of my dissatisfaction, therefore,
Is my moving away from or closing the door
To my wishes. Some relief is what I require
And perhaps a more open-hearted point of view.

I don’t have to wait until it really gets bad
To where I become someone I’m not meant to be.
I can catch it before things get way out of hand.
Of my thoughts and feelings I must take full command.
If I tune myself each morning, the best of me
Is available. Peace is what I will have had.

Catch It!

Volitile Grasp

The degree of the agony or ecstasy
That is felt has to do with my own momentum
Or the power of my true heart’s burning desire.
If I really want something, then not to acquire
It would really feel awful. I fear the outcome
If I have lost control of it but completely.

But because the momentum is strong just right now
I do not have that nuanced control that I need.
I have no way of guiding it. It then guides me.
There must be some procedure to help me break free.
May the forces angelic come and intercede.
I am open to all that my God may allow.

Yet, if I’m in the habit of daily tuning
With morning meditation and finding that place
Where everything feels right, then off thoughts I can catch
Way before they can take root and dare to outmatch
What is strong of the body kept in avid grace.
What I care about mostly is one simple thing.

And the more that I Catch It the less I will move
Into those kinds of thoughts. I will find true relief
From the confounding struggles that haunt through the day.
I so much want a life filled with laughter and play
Rather than one of fearfulness, heartbreak, and grief.
On this day I am destined to quickly improve.