Often manifestations that are not perfect
Will keep people from manifesting those that are.
The contrast in the not perfect one is the start
Of improvement. My insanity breaks my heart.
I can’t doubt my own writing. What I’ve done thus far
Seems not worth all the effort. What should I expect?

I expect folks to look at my work and comment.
Is that too much to ask of someone unworthy
Of attention? For me this is good exercise
Although it will probably lead to my demise
If I keep fucking with what people think of me.
Cluelessness about life at my age I lament.

What I want is specific. I want to belong.
Satisfaction with pissing alone in the breeze
I can’t muster for much longer. Something must change
For the better. My writing is not all that strange
To real people. I suffer from mental disease.
Many choices that I’ve made in life have been wrong.

Can I write myself out of this deadly routine
And decide to be happy in my world alone?
To the very few people who do visit here
I am thankful and hopeful the message is clear.
The biggest fear that I have is being unknown
And unnoticed. I must practice mental hygiene.

Have no fear of upsetting me if you believe
In your heart that what I do is mediocre.
Can you do it much better? I must ask in pride.
Some folks will think I’m lousy. I’ll take that in stride.
Life can be as simple as a game of poker.
There’s no limit to what anyone can achieve.