Tag Archive | switch

Facing Contrast

Apr3

Shadowed

How can I think good feeling thoughts when I’m in pain?
If there isn’t an answer then what can I do
To relieve myself of this intense agony?
Is there any hope of my ever breaking free
Of this thing I seem to be putting myself through?
Normalcy of existence I need to regain.

I have to separate the emotion from what
Is being manifested within my body.
If I can postpone my feeling utter despair
For a brief moment I can get to a place where
I can whittle the pain away gradually.
I need something to catapult me from my rut.

I can understand that the manifestation
Of how I feel I can control right here and now.
I can change how I feel no matter how I feel.
I do not have to make of the pain an ordeal.
Anything I can get through if I can allow
The wellbeing to flood my imagination.

I can’t let ‘what is’ be the reason why I feel
The way I do. The reason must be because I
Intended to feel this way. I get to decide
In each moment to feel fine or dissatisfied.
Now I don’t have to keep on asking myself why
I must suffer that which is not the ideal.

Stops Along The Way

Jun30

Punctuated Routes

On the journey to what I think makes my life whole
And complete, there are many detours and places
To be checkpointed. Thank God for my GPS
For without it my life would be a total mess.
At each stop there are things that my heart embraces
Such that I’m not that bothered with reaching my goal.

Sometimes I’ll find myself on my way to some things.
Often my inner being will lead me to an
Experience that will help me to activate
And fine tune my vibration wherein I create
The best moment, then the next… I know that I can
Be aligned with the blessings each new moment brings.

I can look there and not find it then look elsewhere
And still not find it before I finally do.
All those places where I looked before were not wrong.
They’re all part of a fun game. As I play along
Blessings seem to be coming from out of the blue.
I honor the existence of both here and there.

Where I am is sufficient for getting where I
Want to be because I always have access to
Inner guidance. It tells me when I’m way off track.
My emotions offer me tremendous feedback.
Any place is the right place as long as I do
What it takes without my having to wonder why.

The Most Important Story

Oct31

A Relaxing Good Read

Once I had mental illness. Perhaps I still do
And don’t know it, but that’s okay. I’m feeling fine.
If I had something physical, I might feel pain.
Would I then have a reason to bitch and complain
About life? It could be that I’m ill by design.
Any excuse for my behavior I’ll cling to.

There’s a kind of arthritis that cripples the mind
And makes of it a battlefield. I remember
Ways that I’ve treated others. I shelter my shame
In my writing. I have but my own self to blame
For the damage. This life has been a disaster
As I now reflect on how to leave it behind.

Positive thoughts evade me when pain is intense.
I can think only thoughts that reflect how I feel
At any given moment. The need to detach
Is apparent. I am a vibrational match
To all that enters my life. My self-made ordeal
Is a foolishly pathetic psychic expense.

My body with its sick mind is different from
The intense emotion that steals my attention.
I can change how I feel much easier than I
Can get rid of the illness. I don’t have to try
To get better. I remain in this dimension
Looking forward to whoever I may become.