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Momentum And Resistance

The goal is to move up the emotional scale
Incrementally. It’s all about your control
Of each moment. If you’re in a state of despair
Then revenge feels much better but you can’t stay there
For a long time without doing harm to your soul.
Keep on climbing. To reach your goal you must prevail.

If you act when you’re in negative emotion
Things will only get worse yet there’s simple relief
In each piece of resistance that you let go of.
You want to be in a place somewhat far above
Satisfaction. Let not resistance be the thief
Of your spirit. To how you feel give devotion.

Between letting go of relief and having no
Resistance there’s a subtle and small difference.
It’s a bit of fine tuning but once you get there
You’ll find doors opening up for you everywhere.
The power you gain in your relief is immense.
You can feel the way you want by making it so.

When your in a state of constant satisfaction
Big things will start unfolding. You’ll slip right into
Feelings of passion and pure exhilaration.
Every step of the way is your own creation.
Just jump start the momentum. Your dreams will come true
As you take good care of your point of attraction.

Pathways To Alignment

Feb28

Many paths to alignment there are to choose from.
The process of selecting the right one for you
Can be fun and quite easy if you make it so.
The guidance within you tells you which way to go.
It reveals in each moment the best thing to do
To lead you to a most favorable outcome.

If you really want something but you focus on
Its absence more than its presence you will defeat
Your own purpose for wanting. You have to align
With your having it. You must decide to be fine
With its absence. Get to where you’re feeling complete
And secure with your passion to rely upon.

What you give your attention to always expands
Into more of what it is. If you’re noticing
The sickness within you, you keep activated
The damned illness that you probably created
By some form of resisting. You can do something
About it. Much of your health is in your own hands.

Moving up the emotional scale is how you
Find your way to alignment. Begin practicing
The Art of Allowing. You cannot get it wrong
Because it’s never done. You’re right where you belong.
You’ve the power to have, do, or be anything
That you give a whole lot of your attention to.

Everything Is Downstream

Nov28

There’s a strong current moving in one direction.
It’s toward your wellbeing and all you desire.
You can go with the flow or you can go against
It but a whole lot of work needs to dispensed
In so doing and your yielding doesn’t require
Any effort. There’s no need for course correction.

So why do people want to paddle hard upstream?
It’s because our society teaches us that
Working hard is virtuous. We don’t want to be
Perceived as some mixture of foolish and lazy.
All the reasons you do so are worth looking at
Because they’re keeping you from fulfilling your dream.

When you say no to something you include it in
Your vibration which is your point of attraction
Just as when you say yes to something you invite
Subtle energies to bring your dream within sight.
Going downstream always leads to satisfaction.
When you push against something you never will win.

When you feel things like love and appreciation
The stream carries you. Without any resistance
On your part you move swiftly to everything you
Want in life and there’s nothing that you need to do
But relax and let your life be a joyful dance
And you’ll get along much better with everyone.

Own Where You Are

Nov22

When you get that feeling that nothing is going
To keep you from going then go but until you
Get that feeling take your time and let it evolve
As it should. Do not make it a problem to solve.
If you feel negativity what can you do
To dissolve it? The answer is worth your knowing.

Where you are is where you are. Where you want to go
Is something that you ought to keep thinking about.
Keep on thinking those thoughts and savor how they feel
In your heart. The thoughtful universe will reveal
What you need to know to you. You’re never without
Your connection to that which will help you to grow.

You have your inner being to guide you along
Your journey through existence in this dimension
Of the physical. Chill more. Don’t act until you
Are aligned with your inner being. What you do
When you’re not is a reflection of your tension
Regarding what you’re doing as if it were wrong.

Your emotional guidance system will tell you
How you’re doing. It helps you to be more aware
Of your source of creation. It shows you the way
To wellbeing and it happens without delay.
How you’re feeling, if given the utmost of care,
Can propel you to places exciting and new.

Own Where You Are And Rise To The Top

Nov9

I tend not to always jump on where my inner
Being wants me to go but what’s encouraging
Is that I can just go there. It’s my decision
To do so. When I do I have all kinds of fun.
With who I truly am it’s worth my engaging
And with this aspect of life I’m no beginner.

Sometimes I feel intensity. That’s because I
Have resistance regarding what I want to do.
It should feel exciting and invigorating.
If it doesn’t then it’s not worth activating
In my mind. I must pay better attention to
How I feel. It’s a thing that I try to live by.

I cannot push the noodle by making something
Happen when it’s not ready to. I need to chill
And allow all my asking to be answered then
Stay receptive. There’s no sense in asking again
And again. One succeeds when the mind is kept still.
I refocus on whatever makes my heart sing.

I know where I am on the emotional scale.
Moving up on it cannot be an indictment
Of my purpose. I’m at peace with where I am now.
All I have to do is open up and allow
Life to offer me lots of fun and excitement.
It’s about telling myself a positive tale.

The ‘When’ Factor

Oct24

Timing is none of your business in the sense that
If you can take timing out of the equation
You will see that your alignment is everything.
When you’re in alignment the universe will bring
What you want to you and the manifestation
Will come quickly – almost as fast as an eye bat.

Why it hasn’t come yet is a question only
You can answer because only you can decide
How long you will take to get out of your own way.
Take your mind off the issue and then try to stay
Somewhere close to alignment. Nothing is denied
But you can keep what you want from coming to be.

Your timing is controlled by your vibrational
Alignment. It has absolutely nothing to
Do with anything outside of you – not one thing.
It has only to do with how long you’re taking
To allow what you’ve been wanting to come to you.
The timing of your wellbeing is natural.

Between where you are and where you want to be there
Is a gap which is timing and your resistance
Makes it wider and longer. Talk yourself into
A rampage about all the good coming to you
And appreciate whenever you get the chance.
Of what is working already be more aware.

Own Where You Are

Oct6

Where you are is the right place no matter where you
Happen to be because you can get to a place
That is better. You climb the emotional scale
Step by step. It’s impossible for you to fail
At feeling just a bit better if you embrace
The notion of wellbeing. You know that it’s true.

When you get that feeling that nothing is going
To keep you from going then Go, but until you
Have that feeling, take the time you need to align
With what you want then everything will work out fine.
If you feel some intensity don’t fall into
Resistance to what your inner self is knowing.

If it feels exciting and invigorating
Then there’s no resistance. You partake of the fun
And fulfillment in doing what you want to do.
If you’re not feeling this way then it’s best that you
Step back from it until you find a solution
To the issue that you seem to be creating.

Don’t try to push the noodle by making something
Work that isn’t quite ready. It’s where it should be
At the moment. Indeed you must chill out as well
Instead of putting yourself through the utter hell
Of trying to figure things out rationally.
Where you are now is from where all is happening.

Tweak Your Energy And Control Your Vibration

Sep30

I feel like I’ve moved up the emotional scale
Quite a bit for the most part. I’m so happy for
The way I’ve been feeling. I’m on top of the world.
My desire flag by now is righteously unfurled.
My vibration is tuned to the things I adore.
Life for me is terrific in every detail.

I’ve been out of work since about ten months ago
And I panic occasionally about my
Fruitless job searching. Otherwise I’m doing fine.
If I forget about it then I can align
With my higher vibration. There’s no reason why
That the path of least resistance I can’t follow.

But is the negative emotion that I feel
Caused by my lack of work? It may be that I fear
That I may lose control over my emotions.
It may be that I’m prone to swim in the oceans
Where the waters appear not to be crystal clear
So I have difficulty in keeping it real.

Shortage consciousness has not a place anywhere
Near the mind or the spirit. Never return to
Where you were if it causes you unhappiness.
Don’t give up the wellbeing that you now possess
And have worked hard and long for. What benefits you
Is the positive outlook that you want to share.

Forget About Struggle

Sep23

How can I get to that place of satisfaction?
What’s the most effective way I can get from hope
To believing and knowing? What can I do now
Right this moment to help me to better allow
Understanding and energy to help me cope
With the struggle? Does this happen with everyone?

Your are where you are. If something has happened and
You’re reacting to it, you’re vibrationally
Where you are with it and anything you can do
To improve the way you feel will benefit you.
Your climbing the emotional scale just may be
The appropriate tool of which you have command.

You can work your way up the emotional scale
Or you can do something that will quiet your mind
And there are many ways such as meditation.
Anything that will help you in the creation
Of a path that leads you to a place more aligned
With your spirit ensures that your truth will prevail.

Often times you need to count to ten and look for
Positive aspects in this person when there’s not
A one evident. You don’t want to make it worse.
Sometimes you have to walk away. The universe
Remembers everything that you may have forgot
And its constant reminders you cannot ignore.

Everything Is Down Streaam

Sep9

There’s a strong current flowing. It’s created by
A whole lifetime of wanting. It’s calling you to
Take you to what you’ve asked for and if you decide
To go down to the river’s edge and take a ride
You will be most delighted by where it takes you.
If you didn’t go for it one would wonder why.

If your turn your boat deliberately upstream
And start paddling profusely someone may ask you,
“Why not turn your boat around and go with the flow?”
But many people do it. They don’t seem to know
Any better yet there are a fortunate few
Where the ride down the river yields pleasure supreme.

We’ve been trained to struggle hard against the current
And it’s noble to do so. It is virtuous
To work oneself to pieces. There’s nothing that you
Want that’s upstream. For all the hard work that you do
Satisfaction is something you cannot discuss
Due to your being in a state of discontent.

Everything that you want is downstream. Just let go
Of the oars and let the current turn you around
In the proper direction to carry you to
Everything that you’re wanting. Your dreams will come true.
Take pleasure in the new sense of freedom you’ve found
All because you’ve decided to go with the flow.

Creating Momentum

Apr8

On the cusp between stagnation and hopefulness
I reside presently. Motion forward is nil.
Nothing seems to excite me. I don’t even care
To do things I like doing. Though it’s not despair,
It’s a feeling of emptiness and lack of will,
And it certainly isn’t the way to success.

I remember, though, that I am emanating
A signal all the time. Everything comes to me
In response to that signal. My emotions are
The most magnificent guidance system by far.
I accept the awesome responsibility
For my point of attraction and what it will bring.

There’s a natural tendency for a moving
Object to keep on moving unless some outside
Force prevents it from doing so. This resistance
I can overcome. I can’t depend upon chance
To get my behind moving lest I be denied
Of my now situation ever improving.

I commit to my feeling better here and now.
It’s the only way I’ll receive inspiration
That will motivate me as it properly should.
I’m doing very well when this is understood.
Things fall into place when momentum is begun
To feel better is always my primary vow.

A Vibrational Match

Apr2

“When I ask, it is given? How can this be true?
There are things that I’ve asked for emphatically
That have not manifested.” If you’re asking for
Something that isn’t coming, it is because your
Vibration is of a different frequency
Than the thing that will bring much fulfillment to you.

You have vibrationally matched yourself with the
Absence of what you want rather than its presence.
It’s so easy to do that. If you’re feeling pain
And discomfort such that it’s driving you insane,
Then it’s hard not to notice this major offense
To your body. It isn’t the way life should be.

You are giving your attention to something that
You don’t want, so you’re activating within you
A vibration that only enhances illness.
You have to find a way to think of it much less,
And your way of thinking has everything to do
With the health of your body. There’s no caveat.

Do the best that you can do in this moment to
Feel as good as you can feel. The slightest movement
In the direction of happiness is for you
Easily accomplished. Anything you can do
To enhance your vibration is effort well spent.
Each and every moment in your life is brand new.

Stay In Alignment In Difficult Times

Mar20

I feel best when I have those moments where things that
Used to mess with me hugely do not anymore.
I can handle things quite well. Not much bothers me.
I believe meditation has helped me to be
More connected to spirit than I’d been before.
I am more discerning about things I look at.

But the question is, regarding the bigger things
That I have no control of, how can I remain
In alignment with spirit? The world and its woes
Are things I shouldn’t look at. They are but shadows
Of a vacant reality, so there’s no gain
In sustaining it. Only the happy heart sings.

It’s a difficult situation when someone
Who I love suddenly dies. The Source within me
Knows there is no death, and I can communicate
With those who are in spirit if I concentrate
On making the connection. I have to be free
Of emotional trauma before it is done.

Situations don’t have to control how I feel,
And I don’t have to blunder my way through the day
Unaware of my feelings. I get out ahead
Of the difficult issue by choosing instead
To selectively sift difficulty away.
In each moment I can find what is most ideal.

Focus On Your Emotions

Feb12

On this leading edge of creation, we are here
To support one another. We are the springboards
Of expansion. We’re not here to mimic others
Nor to be accepting of whatever occurs.
Positive emotions do have their just rewards.
One of them is a mind that is perfectly clear.

No one is here to ‘get’ you because we are all
Part of one diverse species. We each are a piece
Of an infinite puzzle. We each are a gift
To all others. We’re here to comfort and uplift
One another. For the soul, it is a release
Of the love that we’re made of which cannot be small.

Don’t defy your own guidance system. Do rely
On your keen intuition. Accept how you feel
To be accurate. Don’t allow yourself to be
Disillusioned by others. The world that they see
Is their world. If to you they have not much appeal,
Then it’s time to respectfully tell them goodbye.

If you feel satisfaction, then you’re in a place
Where you have much control. You could go either way,
So it pays to be conscious and fully aware
Of how you feel in each moment, and you must care
More than anything that you will have a fine day.
Feeling satisfied means that your life you embrace.

I’m Sick Of My Life

Dec9

I’m so sick of my life. I am forty years old.
I am single. I make less than minimum wage,
And I live with my mother. I have not a clue
As to what on God’s green earth I’m able to do.
It’s not wise, but I find myself prone to engage
In self-pity. My displeasure I’ll not withhold.

Where am I on the standard emotional scale?
Somewhere south of frustration but not quite despair?
It feels mostly like anger. If I reach for blame,
Will I feel some relief, or will I feel the same?
My emotional journey is taken with care
Blame feels better than anger, so I will prevail.

The economy sucks, therefore, I remain stuck
In a huge rut without any room to advance.
Had I been guided differently as a child,
Then much better prepared I’d have been for this wild
World of infinite contrast. I don’t have a chance
Due to circumstance. I remain straight out of luck.

Now, that feels a lot better. I have shifted my
Vibration just a little. A different place
I’m now in. Opportunities are within reach
That were not a short while ago, and within each
Journey of feeling taken, there can be found grace.
There’s so much to gain as I give this thing a try.

Things Will Flow

Nov30

Things begin to start flowing once you realize
That they should, because everything works out for you.
You’re aware that there is an emotional scale.
Your conscious and positive intent must prevail.
There is nothing but goodness from your point of view.
Knowing your guidance system is healthy and wise.

Going from despair to revenge, you are aware
Of relief, even though it is still negative.
You have no control when you are hopelessly lost,
But with revenge, a big psychic river is crossed
Wherein you have decided that you want to live
With enthusiasm and without the despair.

Letting go of resistance is the only way
To crank up your emotion to its highest state.
Relief is no resistance, and satisfaction
Is the best place to be for the simple reason
That a beautiful life you can’t help but create.
For the good life, there is only your joy to pay.

Fast momentum is gathered in your letting go
Of resistance. The leverage in alignment
Is of enormous power. When you’re satisfied,
Then nothing in the universe can be denied.
You’re at one with the provident, ever present
Unseen forces that will allow blessings to flow.

You Can’t Get It Wrong Because It’s Never Done

Oct28

If you’re asking for something, but not receiving,
You’ve vibrationally matched the absence of it
More clearly than you have its presence. It remains
The stronger of two forces. You go through the pains
Of resistance but not to your own benefit.
In your own self-worth you may not be believing.

It’s so easy to do. If you’ve got a sickness
In your body, then negative emotion feeds
Your conscious awareness of the incessant pain.
Spiritually, you’re given time to regain
Natural alignment. The afflicted self needs
To recover. One cannot speed up the process.

If you really want something but you are really
Focused on its absence, and you keep doing so,
It will manifest physically as illness.
Struggling with your false limits causes you distress.
Take advantage of your vibrational escrow.
Change your point of attraction. It will set you free.

You cannot get it wrong because it’s never done.
You will always be wanting more than you have now.
Shifting up the emotional scale is easy,
And as you release resistance, your life can be
Wonderful and exciting. You learn to allow
By accepting the good feeling thought that’s begun.

Satisfaction

Oct22

When a car has its brake off, and it’s out of gear
On a steep hill, it will move and gain momentum
Very quickly downward. In the same way, I can
Go from satisfaction to a place better than
Mere contentment. There’s nothing I need overcome
But my own resistance and corruptible fear.

Satisfaction into ecstasy or into
Love or exhilaration, or into passion
Happens as I have practiced. It gets easier
To live life in a way that I most would prefer.
Finding ways to feel good is always in fashion.
The emotional scale is not something that’s new.

I can feel much relief if I go from despair
To revenge, for example. I have some control
With the latter. I don’t want to stay there too long.
In that state, I will end up doing something wrong.
Feeling better is always the ultimate goal.
Of my emotions I am constantly aware.

There is a fine tuning adjustment to be made.
The relief that I feel is more resistive than
Satisfaction, although relief is a good thing.
When I’m satisfied, doors then begin opening.
There’s no other way but to do all that I can
To stay happy. Before, I had been too afraid.

Every Little Secret

Jun28

I’ve been dealing with back pain for over three years.
I have not been able to get a good night’s sleep.
I’m awakened suddenly often through the night.
If I get back to sleep it’s fitful all despite
My efforts to feel wholesome. I manage to keep
Myself from feeling hopeless despite all my fears.

What I want exactly is to wake up restored,
Refreshed, joyful, and eager to start the new day.
Can my natural state of wellbeing return?
About pain there are some things I truly should learn.
For Every Little Secret I’m willing to pay
Undivided attention. This I can afford.

Long before the pain manifested within me
I was pushing against things and making life hard
Which feels terrible on the emotional scale.
I must use resources that are at my avail.
Negative patterns of living I must discard.
I can savor the feeling of being pain free.

Do anything and everything that you can do
To soften the awareness of the nagging pain.
If that means taking pills then by all means do it.
To the emotional work I still can commit.
Absolute physical wellness I can attain
By releasing resistance. I must follow through.

The Emotional Scale

Jun22

I am bored with my whole life. It makes little sense.
The longer I exist the less I am enthralled
By what life has to offer. The matter with me
Is that I’ve lost connection. I would like to be
Who I am at my finest. I’m neither appalled
Nor delighted. I’ve lost the feeling of suspense.

I want to feel contentment. I want to let go
Of all that I’ve been pushing against. I am done
With the struggle and striving. I just want to be
Comfortable and wholesome within my body.
I can get there on my own. I’m the only one
Who can make changes to my feeling status quo.

My boredom is the tipping point to contentment.
If I can make that tiny jump I’m on my way
To releasing resistance to feeling better.
The appropriate practice indeed must occur.
Life for me can seem like a delightful ballet.
How I feel at the moment I cannot resent.

I know that things are going sufficiently well.
With that thought I can feel some internal relief.
Noticing the positive aspects of my life
I can lower the frequency of psychic strife.
That I can control how I feel is my belief
Otherwise I’d be living unspeakable hell.

Things Will Flow

Feb16

The emotional scale is a continuum
Of all possible feelings. One end is despair
And the other is ecstasy, and in between
A progression to wellbeing clearly is seen.
If I want to feel happy then I must take care
That I know precisely where bad feelings come from.

From despair to revenge is a positive leap.
I have much more control, and I find some relief
From a cold crippling numbness that eats at the soul.
It’s not healthy to stay there, but I feel more whole
If at least I feel anger. It is my belief
That I can avoid things that my spirit can’t keep.

Between having no resistance and letting go
Of resistance, there is a subtle difference.
Like a car with its brake off and it’s out of gear
Momentum gathers quickly. It’s best I adhere
To the basic psychology. It does make sense
To create my momentum and go with the flow.

From complete satisfaction into ecstasy
Can happen rather swiftly. I’m not complacent
With the way that things are. I’m exhilarated
With the wonderful world that I have created
Wherein I have the freedom to dwell in content.
I have no doubt that good things will flow unto me.

How To Unblock

Nov1

There’s this thing that I really want that has not come,
And I want to know why it is taking so long
To receive what I’ve asked for so vehemently.
Yet, forgetting about it, I’m told, is the key,
Which makes ass backwards sense. If I’m doing things wrong
Just by wanting too much, I must be awfully dumb.

Of course, this way of thinking and acting defeats
What I want to accomplish. I must understand
What seems like such a puzzle. How Do I Unblock?
I defeat the solution by taking full stock
In the fact of the lack of the thing I demand.
Energy meant for living my dying depletes.

Getting out ahead of it is what I can do.
Doing what I’ve kept doing will get me no more
Than I always have gotten. Another approach
Can be found. I can trust in my spirit as coach.
The process I am making too much of a chore.
I can tell by how I feel. It is a strong clue.

The emotional scale is as real as any
That traverses a spectrum of polar extremes.
Most deliberately the ascension is made.
I should then be excited and not so afraid
That somehow I’ll not honor all my hopes and dreams.
What I want is as important as the journey.

These Two Statements

Oct12

Consciousness is eternal. It has no escape
Into mythical nothingness. And it is true
That what you ask is given. Sometimes it may seem
That it’s not so because you have low self-esteem.
You are out of alignment with that part of you
That is always and ever in the best of shape.

Focusing on what’s negative, like constant pain
That has made the body an unwilling hostage,
Is so easy to do. It becomes a practice.
And the more it is done, it is hard to dismiss.
It’s a manifestation that you must engage
To the best of your feeling for maximum gain.

A vibration is activated within you
Whenever your attention to something is strong.
How you feel is a most blessed indicator
Of vibrational content. As you attune more
To how you feel in each moment, it can’t be long
Before you will be living a life that is new.

Things can only get better. Write down these statements:
You can’t get it wrong – and – You never get it done
Anything that is never done cannot be wrong.
If I had enough talent, I’d make this a song.
Practicing your allowing is not only fun.
It can also be used for poor mood abatements.

Unblock!

Oct4

Here I am with the absence of what I desire.
All I have is the tonnage I’ve placed in the way
Of my truest heart’s yearning. Knowing it can’t come
While I’m in this depressed state separates me from
Everything that I’m after. Internal decay
Leaves me stuck in a hard place bewildered entire.

What is said in reply can’t be heard by my ears
When I’m dead in the substance of what I have not.
I’ve built up some momentum that is negative.
I must channel it somewhere in order to live
In a way that I rarely am caught on the spot
With the world knowing all of the worst of my fears.

I can’t keep doing what I’m doing and expect
To get something that’s different. I need to find
And approach that’s less stressful and much more at ease.
Feeling true excitement and encouragement frees
Up the spirit so that it can be just as kind
To the world as is possible and with respect.

The emotional scale is real and powerful.
Being consciously aware of it is to be
In the proper position for making choices
To enhance how I feel. And my heart rejoices
In the newfound control that I have over me.
I’m delighted to know that this stuff isn’t bull.

Unblock

Sep11

There’s this thing that I want so much, and it’s not here!
I would like to know why and what I’m doing wrong.
Am I not sitting straight enough? Is there some block
That I am not aware of? I don’t mean to mock
All this talk of alignment. I have played along
With the Law of Attraction. My stuff should appear.

When I want something too much, don’t think about it
Because that only clogs things and makes me feel stuck?
Well then how on God’s green earth can I be assured
That the thing that I want is most surely secured?
It’s too much of a task. I’m feces out of luck.
The ironic enigma makes me want to quit.

But there is no alternative. It is the key
To success in the process of my creation.
I must feel the excitement – non discouragement…
And the ease to live life with no need to resent.
Getting to what I’m after is all about fun.
It has taken a lifetime to finally see.

Yet in seeing, I’m being all who I’ve become.
It’s not hard to be easy when given the choice.
Doing things the old way only brings back old things.
When I stop the struggle, then the universe brings
Much more than I’d expected wherein I rejoice
To releasing the blockage to where it came from.

Relief

Jul23

In releasing resistance I find true relief.
I must know that this feeling is better by far
Than a hell ever present. The sorrow and pain
That I have caused for others because I’m insane
Now congest the insides of me and leave a scar
On my sense of direction. I am my own thief.

The emotional ladder is what I must climb.
From the bottom abysmal with deepest despair,
The next rung is anger. I need someone to blame.
It’s a much better feeling wherein I reclaim
Some power that I’d lost by not being aware
That there is such a spectrum. It’s here all the time.

Moving up the emotional scale is to feel
My way to satisfaction, and from there, onward
To the freedom and peace that I ask strongly for.
There is only momentum toward that and more.
The resistance I nurture cannot be ignored.
I can only release it in order to heal.

Nowhere near to the top do I find myself now.
Although I feel relief, no vibrational match
Does it make to fulfillment of ultimate dreams.
The increase in momentum between the extremes
Of emotion I’m able to use to detach
From what’s wrong with my present then learn to allow.

On Beating The Blues

Apr13

An old man on a job search is death wish engaged
At full throttle straight into the darkness of hell.
Able bodied I am with an excellent mind
But this world doesn’t see that. In essence, it’s blind
To what I have to offer. I’m just a hard sell
To the age of the phone app. Indeed I’m outraged.

But who gives a bat’s dropping among hell’s elite?
Having spent the last few weeks as a prostitute
On the road and in offices for interviews
That upset and degrade me, I’ll not self-abuse
As I sense that’s the intent because they can’t shoot
Me for sport or for pleasure. Still I’m in defeat.

Sent way out to the boondocks through Amazon Flex
With a carload of packages on gravel roads
With no God Damned thing guiding me but a phone app
Then the fucking phone dies. The whole day’s turned to crap
I bent over and puckered for copious loads
Of the dark seed of Satan in virtual sex.

I’d take this as a joke played on me with a smile
And forget like a bad dream what’s happened to me
If I were a lot younger – not old and depressed.
Vows I’ve made to my doctors were not made in jest
But when push comes to shove one would have to agree
That to ask for a breastfeeding isn’t my style.

I cannot be employed, yet Magic I create.
I have many fine talents and education
That I’m still paying off after decades by now.
This life hates my damned guts. This fact I can allow
To solidify suicidal decision.
But for now, I’ve decided to nourish my hate.

Never Feel Negative?

Mar21

There’s this thing called “The Stream.” Everything in it flows
Only in one direction. The current some fight,
And this taxes the mood. People bring themselves down
Putting forth so much effort perfecting the frown.
Others let “The Stream” carry them and find delight
In the places it takes them. Their happiness shows.

To believe in “The Process” is simply to know
That I can always catch myself losing control
In a ‘tense’ situation. I’m pointed upstream!
My emotions cause me to act in the extreme.
In the moment I realize this, I’m more whole.
Letting go of the oars, I can let “The Stream” row.

Just let go of the bullshit. It’s not worth the harm
That it does to the spirit, and in the release
I will notice The Turning immediately.
And in time pleasant manifestations I’ll see.
Confidence in my worthiness must then increase.
“The Process” takes some practice but works like a charm.

“The Stream” moves rather quickly after turning me
In the proper direction. So, my letting go
Of the thoughts that upset me is all that I need
In any situation to get myself freed
From my having turned upstream. And now that I know,
No excuse have I for acting negatively.

The Magic Realist

A Poet's Path

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