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I’m Sick Of My Life

A Severely Depressive Episode

I’m so sick of my life. I am forty years old.
I am single. I make less than minimum wage,
And I live with my mother. I have not a clue
As to what on God’s green earth I’m able to do.
It’s not wise, but I find myself prone to engage
In self-pity. My displeasure I’ll not withhold.

Where am I on the standard emotional scale?
Somewhere south of frustration but not quite despair?
It feels mostly like anger. If I reach for blame,
Will I feel some relief, or will I feel the same?
My emotional journey is taken with care
Blame feels better than anger, so I will prevail.

The economy sucks, therefore, I remain stuck
In a huge rut without any room to advance.
Had I been guided differently as a child,
Then much better prepared I’d have been for this wild
World of infinite contrast. I don’t have a chance
Due to circumstance. I remain straight out of luck.

Now, that feels a lot better. I have shifted my
Vibration just a little. A different place
I’m now in. Opportunities are within reach
That were not a short while ago, and within each
Journey of feeling taken, there can be found grace.
There’s so much to gain as I give this thing a try.

Things Will Flow

Open Source Abundance

Things begin to start flowing once you realize
That they should, because everything works out for you.
You’re aware that there is an emotional scale.
Your conscious and positive intent must prevail.
There is nothing but goodness from your point of view.
Knowing your guidance system is healthy and wise.

Going from despair to revenge, you are aware
Of relief, even though it is still negative.
You have no control when you are hopelessly lost,
But with revenge, a big psychic river is crossed
Wherein you have decided that you want to live
With enthusiasm and without the despair.

Letting go of resistance is the only way
To crank up your emotion to its highest state.
Relief is no resistance, and satisfaction
Is the best place to be for the simple reason
That a beautiful life you can’t help but create.
For the good life, there is only your joy to pay.

Fast momentum is gathered in your letting go
Of resistance. The leverage in alignment
Is of enormous power. When you’re satisfied,
Then nothing in the universe can be denied.
You’re at one with the provident, ever present
Unseen forces that will allow blessings to flow.